I don't have a reason to stay around on IB, or many other places as I don't belong anywhere anymore, and don't have any motivation to create anything anymore, even difficult to do It and It took me three entire days (Yes, I spent three entire ays/most of my time awake during the day) trying to make a walk animation and side states for my sprite base only to finish but not use It and not be happy with It thinking I should have just not odne It at all In the first place.(
For battlign the depression I have tried almost everything, and nothing works. I tried to find/get closure but nothing has worked. At this point divine Intervention or a spiritural visit/experience Is needed...
I'll still be here for now, but Christmas day I'll post a Christmas message on
's shout, one more journal, stick around for comments/PMs and after that, I'm pretty much not ative here, until the other seasonal holidays to leave a holiday greeting shout on his page.
Why are the best friends always the first to go....why must Krezz die while many evil people continue to cause misery and suffering and still live to over 60. My heart stil hurts the same from the night of those news, my equipment still doesn't function, almost every time I sleep I have the same nightmare of a repeat of that night. When awake, I think of him most of the time on what Ifs/would he like/what would he be doing now, and hwo he made me feel safe and have value.
I'm not desired, all I am Is pity, I cannot be helpd or saved. I disbanded/deleted my Discord server after an Incident that has almost endangered me. I have a stream page but nobody really goes their on their own free will which Is fine since I'm barely able to play/do anything anymore.
So much to be said/asked/done... and I can no longer do that since June...
I belong nowhere... I cannot smile... only nightmares... Sorry...
Come back to us Krezz... you deserved to grow old to be called Grandpa Krezz/Grey Fox/That Sly Old Fox...
