Hello everybody! I hope you too had an acceptable start into the new year! At least mine was, got a solid burn on my right thumb, but it wasn't as bad as I feared, pfff. I really missed having fireworks, it was great.
In connection to the last journal https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10418112/ , I want to let you know a few things. Many of my journals are usually about negative things that by nature aren't very uplifting, however I always thought that I have to let people know when something holds me back (I want to change things up and report on better stuff as well, because we all can use some higher vibes).
Since I last posted in December, death and sickness had been the talking point almost every day. After 4-5 weeks it's begun to notably wear on my overall mood, to a degree where I had to bring it up and draw myself out of things just so I can somewhat focus on my work. It turned me into a pretty sour, jealous and spiteful person lately. That only brings out the worst and I very much don't like it one bit, because that is neither who I usually am nor who I want to be.
Well now that you know that, on top of my burnout late last year, I have also become a bit insecure and very anxious, especially since I do not wish to half-ass the pictures YOU guys'n gals paid me to do, you know, just to get it out of the way, ain't gonna happen. Your hard earned money is gonna be rewarded with the best I can do.
So. I'm working my way back, slowly but surely. Intention is to get the comic back going, major enemy there too being anxiety, I admit. I want to hit some of my books again and refresh some of my knowledge so I can tackle the things that can be improved more efficiently.
I recently went through my furry art collections to correctly sort and also delete a few things. Apart from my brain starting to go on strike after 25.000 images (and that wasn't even all of it lol), I always find it interesting to see how furry art has evolved since I started saving images I like in 2008.
That of course includes my own stuff as well. Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in an underdog state. Other artists reel in great numbers and traffic, but I feel that I don't (I'm still a number slut, I know it's not very great...). But as I mentioned, things have been moving since 2008, not only in terms of skill, but also in style and feel. My 2010-13 images don't really feel like those from 2016-17 and likewise the sort of transitional period I had in 18-21 also feels pretty different (to me at least.)
I'm always on this train of thinking that it's one continuous line, when it probably really isn't. From the bottom of my heart, I appreciate that you folks seem to equally like what I put out, be it dragons OR dinosaurs from various franchises! Overall, I like the direction I started to take last year and I want to keep improving on that level for the time being, since I feel I need to do more of that, the visuals seem to favor my preferences. The big new thing I still want to get into is telling little stories; something that has been missing more often than not.
Well well... that broadly renders out what I wanted to tell you folks. I hope you have a great rest of your day and don't hesitate to pay me a visit in one of my streams! :)
