Update: Art Future and Living Situation, Need help.
Hi everyone. I just wanna say something important regarding my future as an artist and life in general. This could be the end of my art journey.
I'm not good at breaking things down, so I'll just say what I wanna say from my heart. Want to give an updated of what's been happening since this post: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10423334/
To make a long story short, the house I was living with my mom and little brother had no owner, but then someone bought the land that the house is on and they want us out. There's no way around this. My mom and I tried to look for a new place but we have nowhere else to go, every house is so damn expensive. We're gonna be homeless. It's not a exaggeration when I say these few months have been horrible. I really can't go on like this anymore.
It just makes me wanna give up on everything. Just a situation out of our control that went from bad to worse. To add context to this on my mental state: My father threw me out of the house on December 2021 and a close friend passed away early in 2021. All this has greatly devastated my state of mind.
Now, for what I've been doing between December 2022 and now. Since December/January, I set out two goal for my self i wanted to do this year.
1. I wanted to get an new iPad tablet, so i could draw anywhere and work more efficiently.
2. I wanted to raise money so I could go and take my dream trip to Japan in December 2023.
I wanted to have a new tablet so I could take art more seriously and I wanted to go to Japan because I wanted to take a vacation, take a mental break from all the misery and suffering I had been dealing for the past 3 years. I thought I would have enough time to reach my goals before any more issues about the house would bring up. But this is not the case. Now you might think I should have focused my priorities on finding a new place. But if I didn't set my goals now, I would never get the chance to achieve them ever again. I really needed the iPad and the trip. I wanted to do something I would be proud of in archiving. I've been working so hard at the best of my abilities to make enough money so I could get iPad and money for trip. I pushed myself to my limits time and time and time again despite my current situation, helping my mom and little bro as well.
Now, the next thing. While i was working towards my goals. Other members of the family have been building a home for us. And it's gonna take a few months until it is done. Once it's done I my mom and little bro will finally have a home for ourselves. Need a few thousands dollars to be done.
As much as I want to open commissions to help myself and family, I can't. My situation is so bad and horrible and unstable that I won't have a place to do commissions with my computer, and I'm so mentally unstable that I can't bring myself to drawing. I'm at my most lowest point in my entire life and I ask for help in any financial and donation i can get. If anyone can help me in my time of need, I would greatly appreciate it.
I would also appreciate it if you could also support me on Patreon, but since I may be on the verge of being unable to draw anymore, I don't know if i should keep it on, honestly: https://www.patreon.com/raxkiyamato
Also, I want to say thank you for all of your support until now. I would've never be able to keep going if it wasn't for everyone's help.From bottom of my heart thank you all.
After this post. I'm really going to need to take an extended leave. I need a mental break and focus on things I need to do to help my family. I don't know when I would get back to normal, if I ever can get back a sense of normalcy.
I would appreciate if can spread this message. If too long. then just can shortened it too "Help Raxki and his family finish building their new home" Or something along those lines.
If someone have a spare room where i can stay until things settle down. please let me know. My telegram is RaxkiYamato and my DM/PMs are open.
