Hey hey!
Just shooting an update out here, and an apology for anyone who has been waiting on a PM response from me!
I don't often talk too much about my personal life, but I know I've got some people waiting on stuff from me, that I haven't gotten back to, so I'm mostly doing this to give an update.
I worked as lower management at my job, full time, 5 days a week; the position required full availability, so I never had a 'set' schedule, I got whatever times they wanted to give me, so it was extraordinarily difficult to ever get specific days off, and I never knew what times I would be free, until the day before the new schedules were set to come out. Sometimes I'd end up with a lone day off at the start of the week, and my next day off near the end of the week, but it was very rare to ever get two days off in a row.
On top of that, it was a very draining sort of job; dealing with rude customers, coworkers who didn't take the job seriously, schizophrenic upper management, and meddling corporate interference, deliveries I'd set orders for just not showing up, or being sent a ton of stuff I didn't order, which then filled all our backstock area, constantly being understaffed, and having what little authority my position entailed, being constantly overridden by people above me on the chain, made me feel like a court jester, rather than a manager.
It was a slow burn type of drain, where it starts off being able to shrug things off, and then slowly, over a period of time, the bureaucracy, the assholery, and the effort of maintaining a friendly and polite demeanor starts to wear you down to the point that just entering the building immediately makes you want to turn around and leave, instead of taking at least a few hours of garbage before you hit that point lol. I feel like my temper increased, being a lot quicker to go right to being pissed, instead of hitting that mildly irritated spot beforehand, and not knowing when I would have a day off, until the day before the new schedule would hit, was just additional stress.
It most definitely effected my creativity as well; I haven't written NEARLY as much, since taking this position, and even though I have ideas that I'd love to work on, among the commissions on my queue, coming home after a shift at work would have me mentally drained, and opening the writing program would just exhaust me further, and thinking out responses to people as well seemed daunting.
Despite the effect on myself, I can't trash the job entirely; it pulled me out of a bad financial spot, and I not only recovered from that bad position in a relatively short time, but also managed to save up a lot as well, and going from biweekly pay, to weekly pay, along with direct deposit, was AMAZING, and I'mma miss that. Having health insurance included was definitely good as well, and I made use of that when I had to take a trip to the emergency room late last year. It only took a slow wearing down of my mental and physical energy in exchange lmao X'D
So, two weeks ago, after yet another chapter in the Game of Thrones style management bullshit-fest began, I decided, I couldn't take this anymore, and gave notice. I was given an opportunity in a brand new field that I've never worked in before, offered training, and instead of letting this pass by, to stay in my 'financially safe, but slowly driving me insane and turning me into someone with a short anger fuse', I decided, for once in my life, I'm going to take a riskier gamble, and dive into something new, something that I've never done before, to try to throw SOME sort of boost into my psyche, a shock to the system, something to knock me out of the exhausting monotony of my current life, and hopefully begin something better for me than my old job.
I have a decent amount of time, before my new job begins, and it's a little scary, knowing I'm taking a risk with starting something new, that I could be complete garbage at, and fail immediately, but I'm mostly keeping a positive outlook on it, and I want it to succeed for me, obviously. Nervous, but in good spirits, if that makes sense?
But, in the meantime, I will FINALLY have some guaranteed free time between jobs, and I am aiming to hopefully be able to FINALLY give some focus to my stories, and my commission queue, to actually get some more work posted here. Again, anyone waiting for me to give you updates, I'm hoping to get those out to you soon, right after I take a little bit to unwind myself from the knot I was constantly tied taut in, and let some of my creativity start flowing!
