Welcome to Inkbunny...
Allowed ratings
To view member-only content, create an account. ( Hide )
Azirik

Still alive

by
Sorry about the no-show for a while,

New job had me running ragged along with just no motivation. (ie)  I couldn't get any rhythm going with art., a few doodles that tooook way too long to get done hated every part and redoing them over and over.
My newest post was the first real sit-down, and wanted to draw, and it's not perfect, but it was a good feeling to draw again.
Having friends kick me in the head for being a workaholic and running myself ragged and not taking time to relax and stop worrying about everything helped.

More than I could ever imagine. And I want to thank every one of you, friends, followers, and those who faved my work.
I would name you all, but I have a 100000 character limit so just gonna say thank you, everyone.
Taking a long look at my life and realizing I was driving myself to the ground and drinking more than I should.

I need to say it,   I fucked up and went down a road I shouldn't have, let myself get lost, and lost the love to draw, whether it's adult or just my overly detailed shit.
Talking to friends and login in here and seeing pm's and comments from folks here about being worried made me stop and think.
So I love you all. Thank you

I'm an artist, and a dorknerdassmonkey so bear with me as I get the art flowing again.


And yes I know I have issues.
Viewed: 130 times
Added: 1 year, 9 months ago
 
NeksusCat
1 year, 9 months ago
Glad to hear you're alive and slowly getting back to your senses. :3
Azirik
1 year, 9 months ago
Always thought it wouldn't get as bad as it did, then didn't see it happening.
NeksusCat
1 year, 9 months ago
Yeah, it always happens like that.
Never think it would turn bad, then you get used to it, forget the to check out the time and date, and when you do - BAM! - a year passed.
ZippersAndLace
1 year, 9 months ago
So good to to see and read you nosing back in.  It can be a hell of a time seeing what we're doing form the inside, cheers to finding a little daylight for yourself all the same.  Really looking forward to you finding a bit of work/self balance and settling your feet again.
Azirik
1 year, 9 months ago
Sometimes the light was right in front of me,  and I couldn't see it.  Took some amazing friends and fans PMing me to make me stop and think.
sirkain
1 year, 9 months ago
Good to hear from you again,. and hope the art mojo returns soon for you! Missed seeing your works. And friends are worth more than gold to me.
Melchior
1 year, 9 months ago
Taking a moment to sit down and reflect on how things are and where it's all going is a healthy thing.

I'm glad you've held onto that artistic spark and I hope you can find a way to better pace yourself going forward, everyone needs time to relax and just do something that they enjoy doing. =3
Saglinger
1 year, 9 months ago
*backpats*  Glad to hear from you. I always worry when one of my favorite artists goes radio silent for a long time.
v3e5
1 year, 9 months ago
A surprise post! I thought art became for you a thing of the past... Hopefully you're back here for good & won't do these long pauses! ;)
Xivius
1 year, 9 months ago
May not know you beyond your art, but you were one of my first follows here, and I always looked forward to what i would see when I saw your name in my queue.

Knowing it was a temporary pause, not an end, is a relief.  Hope things are and continue to get better for you.
Azirik
1 year, 9 months ago
I'm going to try and not over load myself,  and let my art be my good vib again, I hope you'll see stuff that you'll enjoy.  may be some strange doodles here and there =)
WheezyKB
1 year, 9 months ago
Glad to see you're alive and well, dude!
MystBunny
1 year, 9 months ago
You're too sweet to spend time being lost and stuff.
Tycloud
1 year, 9 months ago
Im glad you are ok. Poke me on telegram if you need a support fox. :3
Azirik
1 year, 9 months ago
*HUGS the support fox*
MrHart
1 year, 9 months ago
*squigglyhugs*
RisingDragon
1 year, 9 months ago
Good to hear from you! Haven gone from something similar I definitely feel ya. I've only recently got back to drawing again myself. It can be struggle to find both the time and motivation to draw.
Azirik
1 year, 9 months ago
At a point, I was sitting in the dark and thought about how worried I was when you vanished. I realized that there are friends out there that may very well be doing the same thing with me.

I logged in and read the several PM's and honestly cried.  

And today, while at work with a cup of coffee waiting for the day to start I was all smiles while I was doodling a rough pic

RisingDragon
1 year, 9 months ago
awww, that's great to hear. Honestly it was comments and chatting with people like you made me want to come back.
MonsterMeat
1 year, 9 months ago
Good to hear your still kicking! and yea the struggle to get back into after after a long block is killer. so I wish you the best!
SherlyKaru
1 year, 9 months ago
*hugs* glad you're getting better, let's just hope it remains the same and well, you know im always around for talk too ^^
cunningredfox
1 year, 9 months ago
Glad to see you back! I have always enjoyed your art.
JakStrieder
1 year, 9 months ago
I'm glad you are, I've missed your art hehe
Gildedtongue
1 year, 9 months ago
Glad you're doing well!

My new job has been kicking my ass too.  But hope that things get smooth for ya!
Azirik
1 year, 9 months ago
Will keep fingers crossed for your job to ease up so you can get some less ass kicked rest.

And thank you =3
ringtailmaster
1 year, 9 months ago
its good to hear news from you again, and i know how you feel: horrible job, personal issues, family issues, adult real life are thing than broken us and take our inspiration and desires away, dont force yourself, you can draw when you feel in the mood, and if you requiere help, do it, its hard when you are in the edge of the abysm, but its worst when youy are inside the abysm, take care my friend *hugs* n_n
scorp29
1 year, 6 months ago
Glad to see you still musing around =3
New Comment:
Move reply box to top
Log in or create an account to comment.